when you're afraid to look ahead

            With only three more days left of 2015, people are talking about a new year, new beginnings, and new goals. It’s the time of year when we reflect back on the last year and ponder about what we could change that would benefit us in 2016. Whether it is getting back to a regular fitness schedule, eating healthier, spending less time online and more time outside and with family and friends, finding a new job, taking up a new hobby, stressing less, loving more, there seem to be so many possibilities. The year is dwindling down and there seem to be so many bright new possibilities for what the year could hold.

            I know that at this time last year, I wouldn’t have guessed in a million years that this year would have panned out like it did. I wouldn’t have guessed that I’d spend 4 months away from home, then be traveling for work for another month after that. I knew that God had something planned for me that was going to push me out of my comfort zone, but I never would have guessed that I’d be over 15 hours away from home, traveling with 8 strangers.. Especially when my college was only an hour and a half away from home, so the longest I went without seeing my parents at one time was probably a month. However, this year turned out to be something I could have never even expected and so much more than I could have ever asked for.

            With that being said, how can we ever tell what the future will hold? We can’t. What if looking ahead scares us, instead of excites us for the new opportunities? What if you don’t want to think of the future because you know it won’t be easy? While 2015 was an incredible year and I’m so thankful for every moment of it, there have also been a lot of challenges that I’ve had to overcome.. Telephone calls that took my breath away, difficulties that are a part of life and we all know that, but yet, when it comes time to face it, we wish with everything within us that we didn’t have to.

            So what if looking ahead is hard for you? What if you know that 2016 will be a hard year, so you don’t want to think about it until you have to. I used to be one huge on planning. I liked to have everything figured out way ahead of time. It’s taken time and I didn’t accomplish it all at once, but I’ve slowly steered away from that. The truth is, none of us are guaranteed tomorrow. We only have the present moment right now that we’re living in, and we never know what tomorrow will bring. I don’t know what the future holds, but I do know the One that does, and I know that no matter what happens, that His plan will unfold how it’s supposed to, whether we want it to or not.

            The future might seem scary to you. I know that it isn’t going to get an easier. Actually, I know it’s only going to get harder. I try not to let that scare me though. There are days that are harder to keep a smile on my face, but I try to keep those days very, very limited. Instead, I find joy in the struggle. I know that everything is happening for a reason, and that God has everything under control. I find my strength there, my hope, my peace. Whenever I am facing a challenge, I reflect back on Romans 5. In this chapter, it reads..
 
Not only so, but we also find glory in our sufferings, because we know that
suffering produces perseverance; 4 perseverance, character; and character, hope.
 5 And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured
​out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.
 
            So though we might be facing challenges, we should find joy in the hard times and persevere. We must let go of what we can’t control, and let God hold us, love us, comfort us, and steer us where we need to go.

            I’ve come to a point in life where many people are getting older, becoming very forgetful, and passing away. It’s been difficult, and sometimes I don’t know what to say or do because I know I can’t fix anything. I know I can’t take their pain away, I know I can’t make them remember like they used to, I know I can’t say the words that will make everything okay like it used to be.  It’s been hard, but a friend reminded me this weekend that this is only our temporary home. Though it’s hard to watch them age and lose their mind and who they used to be, there’s an eternity with Jesus that they are coming closer to, a place where there won’t be any more pain, any more tears. While I know things are going to get worse as the time goes by, and that makes it hard to look ahead. I can’t think of it that way though, because I know that a life with Jesus in heaven will be so much better than it is here. They won’t be in pain, there won’t be any more tears, they’ll be where they’re meant to be.

            When it hurts to look ahead, when it’s scary to think of things that are inevitably going to happen, so you just can’t think of the future, what do you do? Remember that we’re only given today. Look around you, look at the people by your side, be thankful for the time that you have now with those you love. See your family, your friends, see photos you’ve taken, and remember. Remember the laughs, remember the fun times, remember that through it all, Jesus has been and always will be there for you. He loves you unconditionally and unwavering. You might fail, you might get mad, you might not understand what He’s doing in your life, but I promise that you’re where you’re meant to be, and you are surrounded by those that are in your life for a reason. Don’t spend so much time thinking of what might happen, because we never truly know. Don’t fret about the future, focus on the now. There’s no point in being stuck in the past or planning frantically over the future because honestly, all we have is right now. Give hugs, give kisses, hold them in your arms just a second longer than you normally would, laugh, cry, forgive, pray, sing, love. Do it all right now, while you can. Look up, look down, look around.. No matter which way you look, He’s always there, everywhere. He’ll give you strength when you’re scared to face difficult times, He’ll be excited for you in the happy times, and He’ll be there, anytime, anywhere.

            As 2015 ends and 2016 begins, there will be good times and bad times for us all, but instead of fearing the future, let us look at it with an open, grateful heart. Let us persevere and love more, smile more, be thankful more. Let’s rejoice through the trials and show the world the love it needs so desperately.